Joh: 14:28 says: You have heard how I said unto you, I go away, and come again unto you. If you loved me, you would rejoice, because I said, I go unto the Father: for my Father is greater than I.
These are the words Jesus spoke just a night before his crucifixion. His disciples were with him for three and a half years and now Jesus was talking about going back to his Father. The only way of going back to the Father would be through his death but he says if you truly love me, you will not be depressed but you will be rejoicing. Why do you think the disciples were very depressed and sad? They had given up their lucrative fishing business to be with Jesus and now that He is talking about going to the Father, their hopes and dreams are shattered. They probably were talking among themselves – “Why are you not thinking about us Lord? We believed that you were the messiah; that you had come to deliver your people and set us free from the Romans who are ruling over us. Now you say you are going back to the Father without even going into battle!!!!!!! You are talking about your crucifixion. We are closely connected to you and the Roman authorities know this, so if they crucify you now, will our turn will be next? Weren’t the disciples thinking more about themselves than Jesus????
If the disciples had truly understood what Jesus was telling them, they would have been a happy lot. Going to the Father meant great times ahead – no more torture, no more temptations; no more struggles; no more Satan’s power – for Satan’s power is only on earth, because it was handed over to him through disobedience of Adam. But what were the disciples thinking? They were thinking when Jesus is gone from here what will happen to us. As long as they remained self centered, they were sad, because they were wondering what would happen to them.
If they had to think of Jesus, and if they truly loved Jesus, then they would be rejoicing for his sake.