Genesis 50:20 — You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people. (NLT)
I have been working with my present company for 2 years. Being part of the talent acquisition (HR) team, I fully well understand that head count is always a challenge. The fight is tough and it can get pretty rough and nasty.
With me completing close to 2 years in my company, I was due for a conversion to be a full time time employee.
I had performed extremely well in my 2 year stint in the company, was applauded and called out for my hard work, efforts and dedication. My manager favoured me. All was going well and smooth and I was most certain that the conversion would come through easily without a hassle.
The last quarter of 2016, between September to December was the toughest phase of my life. I had to fight a battle and was put to the toughest test of my life like never before.
Never did I think that a smooth sailing sea could turn so rough and rough did it turn and How?
When conversations of my conversion took place with my manager though she was positive and optimistic, we did not get the best news from our senior authorities in the U.S. They kept coming back with reasons like headcount was a challenge, the performance was not up to mark etc. This was a continuous battle that kept going back and forth which I had to fight daily for 3 months.
I was discouraged and disheartened. In spite of being an excellent performer, well known and recognised by my peers, seniors and favoured by my manger, I couldn’t fathom what problem did they have with my performance. It felt for once like all forces were against me and though I confessed and declared God’s Word over my life (never did I stop even once) I felt like I kept bouncing back to square one.
However, I wasn’t giving up easily. Warriors in Christ of the Word that we are, I decided to dig deeper and understand what the Lord’s plans for me were. I stood strong in my faith and confessed, declared and decreed his Word over my life. I meditated on the life of Joseph (book of Genesis), Life of Joshua (Book of Joshua) and studied the life of various men and women of God who faced severe trials. I bounced back in the Word like never before with a force unknown to me.
During this time the Lord encouraged me to write down scriptures that he brought to mind and confess and declare it daily. I have a small notebook where I have journaled the scripture and fought back the negative voices that came against me.
I also went around my office building and did the Jericho March everyday for 7 days. This strengthened and encouraged me during this phase and gave me much peace and joy in waiting for God’s perfect plan to come to pass in my life.
During the period of 1st week of December I was struck with an alarming news that shook me for quite sometime to come.
In one of my 1:1 meetings with my manager, she told me downright and straight up to start looking for job. Yes! After investing 2 years of hardwork, efforts and being a top performer I was asked to look out for a job. This devastated me.
Headcount again posed to be a problem as expected. What was even worse was misconstrued information about me was escalated to our superior authorities in the U.S. Things played out badly in my favour leading to them having a negative impression about me and having second thoughts about my retention in the organisation. I was shocked and deeply disturbed. My own team members, the ones who I worked closely with turned their backs against me.
Nevertheless, I was resilient, I did not give up and pressed even harder into the Word. With just a month for my term to expire, no alternate job at hand and with my manager urging me to apply for jobs outside the organisation, I was preassurised to the highest possible extent. The situation looked bleak as ever with each passing day showing no sign of improvement *in the natural though*. However mountains were moving in the spiritual realm 🙂 my Lord was working at his mighty best!
During this time, I then reached out to my spiritual mentor, Uncle Marty who helped me pray through this situation. He also gave me the Word Psalms 118:1-29 to confess 3 times a day, which I still continue to confess till date. This Word gave me a lot of insight and wisdom for my situation.
I would go each day to the quiet room in my office and confess and declare the Word with all my might. Every time the enemy came against me with a negative situation or Word I would open my mouth and confess the Word out Loud and clear.
The tide of the battle slowly turned with each passing day. I was still in the storm but God was breathing in my direction.
I was not too keen on exploring opportunities externally so I was exploring opportunities within my company. There were 2 roles that came up, one in the larger team that I am part of and the second in an entirely different team. I continued to declare God’s Word over my situation seeking his wisdom and guidance in the decision I had to make.
Our Lord’s timing is perfect, never too early and never too late. With just a week in hand before my company’s annual shutdown, when uncertainty and anxiety was at it’s peak, I got the news confirming my employment to the role I had applied to with the Learning and Development team – My breakthrough moment :).
It was something that I’ve secretly always wanted to do and was interested in and here is how the Lord fulfilled it. I believe that this role is not my final destination. This opportunity is a stepping stone and a pathway for the greater and bigger master plan that the Lord has designed for me.
Though the enemy intended this sequence of happenings for my harm, the Lord turned it around to work it together for my good. Romans 8:28.
In life, we go through certain situations and circumstances that is beyond human comprehension, but what the Lord has taught me through this is what the enemy means for our harm, the Lord intends to use the same situation so that *people can be introduced to Christ through us* What a high calling is that! 🙂
I thank the Lord for his perpetual goodness and faithfulness in my life NO MATTER WHAT!
Isaiah 43:18-19 Do not call to mind the former things, Or ponder things of the past. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness. I will create rivers in the dry wasteland. (NLT)